It's definitely nice to be home and it was awesome to eat Chinese food last night rather than hospital food, but it's an adjustment trying to figure things out here too. Luckily, I was already living at home (to save money for the wedding next summer), so that was easy because all of my things were already here. It's frustrating not to be able to do simple things like feed Abby on my own or take her outside on my own, although we were laughing last night that I could probably walk Abby while riding in the motorized scooter, haha.
I feel like my parents are constantly watching me too, which I know is inherent in parenting, but still, I'm 28 years old and I still want to be independent. I keep telling them, and everyone else that I'll ask for help when I need help, but I want to try to do it on my own first. To say this has been humbling to an extent would be an understatement. It's weird to ask for help doing little things like putting on socks. But every time I get frustrated I have to remind myself that this could have been a lot worse. I could have brain damage from hitting my head or I could have ended up like Christopher Reeves and be paralyzed. So I have to be thankful for that, but it's tough to remember that when I wake up at 5:40am and feel like a turtle stuck on my back in a really uncomfortable hospital bed in my own room or when doing something as simple as just trying to get out of bed this morning took 30 minutes.
So anyway, I'm doing well. I still get frustrated and I still want to cry a lot of the time, but I'll make it through this. Anyway, time to start on the phone calls to FCPS to figure out where to go from here for work and all that.
Things to be thankful for:
*This isn't a permanent injury, I will recover from this
*I'm home and I can have visitors whenever I want ;)
*I have people who care for me and I love all the emails I've been getting
Things to work on:
*deep breathing- literally, never thought that would be part of my rehab, but I've got to get it mastered so I can do things like clear my throat, cough, and laugh.
*not being so stubborn
*patience
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So glad you are back at home and trying to do stuff on your own. We are thinking about you all the time and hoping this rehab process gets easier every day for you. Just keep thinking about next summer and how you and my bro will be livin' it up on the dance floor at your wedding!!!!
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